11:11 Meaning, Another Grief Trigger - Robin Chodak

11:11 Meaning, Another Grief Trigger


The 11:11 meaning is bittersweet to me this week.  They have been my guiding force since 2005.  The awakening came to me after the suicide death of my husband Steve. It was after that time that I began to see those numbers.  They appeared to me when I finally had the courage to listen to a Beatles song on the radio.  Steve was an avid guitar player and loved the Beatles.  I often heard him strumming their songs on his guitar; therefore after he died I couldn’t listen.  One day it was different. I didn’t turn the radio off while the song, “All you need is love” played. It seemed Steve was in the room. His presence was felt, but I didn’t see him. I called out his name and that is when I saw 11:11 on the clock.  I knew he wanted to connect with me.  The same thing happened several times and that is when I became a believer in the power of numbers and the 11:11 meaning. 

As I think of the circumstances today they are uncanny.  Steve and I married on 11-11 in 1995.  I didn’t know the significance of the date at that time. But I believe Steve knew it. I believe he knew he would communicate to me through them.  He knew that I would be open, receptive and awakened to them. 

Mystical Circumstances exist!

Not only was I open and receptive to numbers and occurrences in the spiritual realm; I became open to allowing another man in my life.  That is when I met Dr. Gerald Chodak.  He was a man of science and did not vest his interest in things such as these.  But as time went on and we became involved I shared with him my connection to Steve and the non-physical realm.  Interestingly, he also began to see the numbers 11:11 daily and his curiosity had sparked in these matters.  He also expressed he felt a connection to my deceased husband Steve.  

Due to the connection Gerry and I had with each other and the way the 11:11 meaning had come to us we decided to marry on a very special day, 11-11-11.

Grief Again.

Sadly, I am a widow once again processing grief.  Gerry died unexpectedly in our home on 9-28-19 and this November 11, 2020, (11-11) will be the wedding anniversary that I have shared with two amazing men in my life.  I have had the gift of experiencing intense love with each of them.  For this I am extremely grateful, but heart-broken that neither are here with me today. My time with each of them was too short.  

Gerry and Steve died exactly 14 years and 14 days apart. In numerology these numbers are added together as such, 14+14 =28 = 10 = 1.  The number 1 is a master number;  therefore 11-11 is a powerful date.  Also, Gerry and Steve both have a life path number of 1. Therefore if you never believed in the power of numbers this story may make you a believer.  

What does all this mean?  It’s difficult to know because there is always so much that we don’t know.  What I do know is that I am grieving at this time, but I also know I will also experience joyful moments.  Therefore I continue my journey to live and love life after loss. My heart is filled with eternal love because I know that Steve and Gerry’s energy is always with me.

Love and Light,


Robin and Gerry 11-11-11



Steve 1995

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I am a woman on a journey of recovery after the suicide of my husband in 2005. It has been a long voyage, but I was able to create a new identity and find happiness again after much hard work. I hope that I can help you along this path, too.

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